Daily Delight

So, here I was at age 45, the Marketing Director at a church, sitting at the staff table, trying to make myself invisible and hoping, “Please, don’t pick me!” It sounds ridiculous and pathetic, but it was my reality. I could feel my heart beat a little faster and my palms get sweaty as Pastor would call on someone to lead the meeting out with prayer. Like out loud, in front of everyone...a pretty normal occurrence at church. It really wasn’t a big deal, but the voice in my head kept saying, “You don’t know the right words!” “Everyone else is way more spiritual than you!” “Everyone else is more elegant than you!” [All lies] Seriously, what is wrong with me? I’ve known God – literally – my entire life, and I’ve talked with Him my entire life! I needed to get a grip.It was fear. Fear of what others would think of me. Fear I’d get the answer wrong. So, getting a grip is exactly what I did! And that’s when I discovered the source of it all. The LIE! There were times as a kid, people made me look dumb in front of others, and looking dumb isn’t my favorite. But it all added up into one big pile of fear. And I played into it. And those voices that wreaked havoc for me daily – I was now shutting up, and allowing the voice that says, “Oh, pick me!” – when it’s time to lead in prayer – speak the loudest.The moment fear comes into play – there’s a lie hiding somewhere. And lies keep us from all the joy and purpose God has for us. Uncovering the lie – disarms the fear. For me – it was a history of humiliation in front of others. For you, it could be something else, but what we can know for sure is that God wants everything, including lies, brought to light. I know, Jesus in my life is the only reason I was able to undercover the lie and stand up to the fear. He is the light that dispels darkness.

“For all that is secret will eventually be brought into the open, and everything that is concealed will be brought to light and made known to all.” -Luke 8:18

About the Author

Theresa Fenton

Currently living in Southern IL, Theresa was raised in the beautiful Berkshires of Massachusetts, and met her husband Kyle 24 years ago. They have two grown children – Abigail & Michael – both away at college and living their dreams. It’s been said that Theresa likes to “make all things pretty,” and that includes the words she puts on paper and her blog.

Theresa loves spending her time fixing up and decorating homes, cooking, meeting new friends, influencing the world around her with hope and faith and ultimately – to love God and love people a whole bunch!

You can find Theresa on Instagram here and her blog here.