Daily Delight
It was the middle of the night and there I sat, in my kitchen floor against the cabinets with my knees pulled close to my chest. The thoughts that were swirling around in my head kept coming and the minutes began to drag on. I rocked back and forth as those awful feelings came flooding back again. I could feel the fear and anxiety crawling up my spine. This is a place I had been before. I knew it all too well. "They are feelings," I told myself. "They will pass." I began talking to God. "Lord, take this away, I don't understand why these moments come, the fear I dread and the panic attacks are so draining..." I waited, they were still there. I knew how this would go.I have dealt with fear and anxiety for two decades now. I'm no stranger to the process. When I talk about anxiety, I want you to know it is not your everyday run of the mill anxiety that life throws at us. I lived with a paralyzing fear that has brought me to the brink of more than just brokenness and feelings of defeat. At times I literally could not move, it consumed me. Thoughts, decisions I made were wrapped around the control fear and anxiety had on me. I despised it. I had let fear creep in through a small crack in my life, and allowed it control. I got really good at wearing a mask, so that others didn't know in fear of what they would think of me.I'm a Christian, why would I be struggling? It's been a long hard fight that has brought me closer to God. It gave me the gift of seeing Him as my Deliverer, my Healer. "...He will never leave you nor forsake you..." (Deut. 31:8 NIV) washed over me. I looked over with tear stained eyes and caught a glimpse of Jesus right beside me with His nail scarred hands over mine. I will never forget the night my Savior met me on my kitchen floor.Beloved, His love for us is like no other. He cares so deeply for you. Know that when anxiety rears its ugly head, we have a Savior that has already defeated it and we can cling tight and rest in knowing that He reigns over all.
About the Author
Heather Koppe
Heather is a 44-year-old brown eyed girl, who is in the pursuit of being an overcomer as she clings to God’s promises. All the while sharing her stories.Heather is a West Virginia girl, now residing in Matthews, NC with her husband Clint, their two daughters and four cats. She recently started a blog and has spoken on a few occasions at women’s Bible studies sharing her real life struggles and the unwavering love of Jesus. She is passionate about the written word and hopes to encourage those around her daily. She also works in Property Management.In her rare, but free time you will find her with a book in her purse, and pen and paper in hand. She is living her best life, a kingdom girl, embarking on new adventures with her family...watching movies, and taking way too many pictures. After a long, hard day - you will find her with ice cream and a bath bomb.You can find her on Instagram here. Be sure to join the Daughter of Delight family and check out Heather’s blog, Fearlessly Hopeful, here.