Daily Delight
For a very long time, I tried to be something I wasn’t. I spent too much time focusing on what I thought I needed to be for acceptance. I tried to be thin, smart enough, funny, designer dressed, pretty, polished, manicured correctly. I tried to be relevant, liked and not the awkward girl I thought I was. Reaching, constantly reaching out to grasp at things I thought would fulfill me. Things I thought would make me feel loved and validated. Reaching in vain only to grasp at things that left me feeling completely empty and so worthless. It was a vicious cycle that left me exhausted, sad and utterly lonely. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀If I look back at that girl, I feel sadness and shame. Let me tell you, that is not what God wants for me. My eyes are now focused on Him and what He is doing in my life. He wants Godly blinders on my eyes. He wants me to look forward to Him, not behind. He found me in my mess of sadness and loneliness looking to the world for love. He found me and has shown me that my validation does not come from my past, my present or even my future. He has mercifully and lovingly shown me my validation comes from Him and Him alone. God said He will keep in ‘perfect peace’ those who are centered on Him (Isaiah 26:3, NIV). Focusing only on Him, His perfect peace is the relief I need from that heavy weight of exhaustion and sadness. His perfect peace keeps my heart aligned with Him. His perfect peace reminds me that I am loved, worthy and accepted in Him.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀I will still have those moments when I look to others for acceptance, when I have to catch myself and realign my heart with His. One of the ways I can keep my heart focused on Him is to adhere to His word. To keep my eyes on Him. Adhering to what I know is true. You and I are fearfully and wonderfully made. I challenge you today to remind yourself of His words and His unending love for you. Read Psalm 139 and let those be your words of praise to God. He is our validation.⠀⠀⠀⠀
About the Author
Rebecca Wager
Rebecca is almost 40, loving and living in sunny Arizona. She is married to her best friend Chris and together they have their rainbow baby (now toddler) Charlotte. In addition to chasing her sweet daughter around, she enjoys time with family, pretending she’s on The Great British Baking Show and being outdoors.
She loves diving deeper into religious studies, writing, getting happily lost in a book and can’t get through the day without a large amount of espresso.
Rebecca is passionate about Jesus, reminding women of their worthiness in Christ and desires to see women thrive in their God dreams. You can connect with her on Instagram here and follow along with her blog, For the Worthy Mom, here!