I cried out to God, “Lord, why not me? What is your plan for my life? When will it be my turn?” I had once again been rejected. Somebody chose someone else. I was not good enough. When I read the e-mail, I started crying in aisle number eight of Publix. I was holding eggs and bread and wanted so bad just to lose grip of them, fall on the floor, and cry. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. So I got mad. As soon as I got in my car, the tears fell. I texted my mom. I texted my best friend. I tried to make sense of the rejection.
It was everything I wanted and everything I hoped for but someone better was chosen. I know God is in control. I know He has me right where He wants me. But that night, those words did not help. I cried on my husband’s shoulder as he comforted me and told me sweet things. It was when I laid down, tears still falling, and heard God whisper, “
Jessica, I have chosen you. You are My beloved. I will never reject you.”
This is not the first time I have written on rejection, but it keeps creeping in. Rejection stings and it hurts. It makes us believe lies about ourselves.
So instead of complaining about our circumstance, we will worship. We will worship the God who has chosen us. We will worship the God who knows all. We will worship our Father who is in control of everything. We will worship how He has a great plan for us. We will worship. Through our worship, our eyes are taken off of our situation, and placed on God. We don’t need to lose sight of eternity because of momentary struggles, but instead place our focus on eternity.
Through the rejection, I keep learning that even though I think it is the best decision for me, God does not. And how humbling is that. He is God, and I am not. I do not know the best thing for me, as He does.
Whatever rejection you are walking through, dear sister, I pray you will remember that rejection does not define you, but God does. He has chosen you.
Jessica Calhoun≫ ≫ A lover of all things coffee, extremely introverted, and very tall, Jessica is an old soul with her home in Birmingham, Alabama. As a newlywed, she is experiencing the unrelenting pursuit of Christ shown through the love of her husband. Through her passion of writing, she hopes to share the love of Christ with those who encounter the words He gives her. When she isn’t helping brides find their dream wedding gown or having coffee dates with her best friends, you can find her curled up on the couch with her fur baby, watching Gilmore Girls, and eating Frosted Flakes.
If you want to follow along her journey of pursuing her passion, check out her blog: graceandmagnolias.wordpress.com.
