Daily Delight

I am standing at a wall I have built in defense. Defense around my heart. Heavy stone constructed to protect my heart each time hurtful words were spoken. Each word, another stone. Moments of shame for not standing up for myself, for letting boundaries be crossed - another stone.

My loving Father is on the other side. I press my ear to the wall, the weight of my broken heart wearily leans in and I hear Him. I long to be close to Him. I am distanced from Him, from His blessings. He is telling me put my hands down and I want to, to receive the fullness of Him, of his blessings.

My left hand holds steady as I, with all my might, hold the wall up to keep the hurt out. My right hand is beating, all my strength, to tear it down. Bloody, battered and beating against my hurt and shame to breakthrough. To allow healing to pour from the opening and allow the wall to crumble. I am exhausted.

This loving Father is telling me to put my hands down. Telling me to let Him demolish what I created. Taking my wreckage and making it something beautiful instead. An alter where I rest my hurt and shame to have him instead give me peace. He wants me to trust His healing will fill the place of what was there before - unforgiveness.

I put my hands down. I let God begin to tear it down, abiding where I stand. Abiding in His love. In this vulnerable place, I put my hands down over and over again to let Him be who He is. To be close to Him, close to the full heart of God. Hands down not in defeat but in grateful submission to the One who will beautifully repair my heart.

Are you struggling with unforgiveness? Press your ear in to hear God gently speaking. Telling you to let it go and rest in Him. Telling you there is grace and blessing and fullness on the other side of it. Daughter of this loving Father, let Him mend your heart.

About the Author

Rebecca Wager

Rebecca is almost 40, loving and living in sunny Arizona. She is married to her best friend Chris and together they have their rainbow baby (now toddler) Charlotte. In addition to chasing her sweet daughter around, she enjoys time with family, pretending she’s on The Great British Baking Show and being outdoors.

She loves diving deeper into religious studies, writing, getting happily lost in a book and can’t get through the day without a large amount of espresso.

Rebecca is passionate about Jesus, reminding women of their worthiness in Christ and desires to see women thrive in their God dreams. You can connect with her on Instagram here and follow along with her blog, For the Worthy Mom, here!