Daily Delight
I almost didn't recognize the reflection in the mirror looking back at me. "Who is this?", I thought to myself. The flicker that was once in my eyes was gone. There was no concealer that would cover the dark circles that stress and lack of sleep had left me with. Where was the glow I once had? I forced myself to smile. Maybe it's the lighting? It wasn't. It had been a long couple of months packed full of too many things to list.
Don't get me wrong, I had some amazing adventures, threw a surprise party and, by the grace of God, overcame some fears I had battled far too long. It was all the in-between stuff- the living up to people's opinions and standards of how they thought I should do things.
The "people pleasing" had caught up with me and I had began to crash from all the acting I had done. I realized that I had let my validation come from others- how they saw me, their opinions on how they thought I should do things, the whole "make sure everybody is happy" scenario kept playing in my head. (Help!?)
Who was this girl I was becoming?
I knew better—way better—and yet here I am looking at myself in the mirror barely recognizing the girl staring back at me. I began to sob. My body was tired and my heart ached. I tried to pray but the words wouldn't come. All I could say was, "I'm sorry, Jesus. I'm so sorry."
I felt ashamed. I had placed the approval of others above the only One that really mattered. My Savior, the One who gives me my next breath. The One who knows me better than I know myself. He is the One I need to be pleasing and seeking favor from. It is only in Him that I find my true identity. (Psalm 139:14)
I looked back in the mirror, there she was the girl I knew was coming back. I took a deep breath and thanked God for His unwavering love and faithfulness.
His approval is the only One I will be seeking. Will you join me?
About the Author
Heather Koppe
Heather is a 44-year-old brown eyed girl, who is in the pursuit of being an overcomer as she clings to God’s promises. All the while sharing her stories.Heather is a West Virginia girl, now residing in Matthews, NC with her husband Clint, their two daughters and four cats. She recently started a blog and has spoken on a few occasions at women’s Bible studies sharing her real life struggles and the unwavering love of Jesus. She is passionate about the written word and hopes to encourage those around her daily. She also works in Property Management.In her rare, but free time you will find her with a book in her purse, and pen and paper in hand. She is living her best life, a kingdom girl, embarking on new adventures with her family...watching movies, and taking way too many pictures. After a long, hard day - you will find her with ice cream and a bath bomb.You can find her on Instagram here. Be sure to join the Daughter of Delight family and check out Heather’s blog, Fearlessly Hopeful, here.